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I love writing, and writing is what I do best. Everyone has their own inspiration and a way to deal with emotion, and my outlet is writing and music. Music is my calm, my happiness, my sadness and my life. I love music, I listen to it all day everyday. I have been writing since I learned how to make sense of all the things going on in my mind. My writing is how I get everything I feel out in the open. When I create a character I feel like I put myself in their shoes, like I vicariously live through them... I wouldn't have it any other way because to me it makes them seem more relatable. Without my writing and music, I would be a lost soul... It is who I am. My name is also Katy Brooks, though it is not my real name, it who I will be known as from here on out.

31 December 2009

Post-2009

This year was crazy, but now too crazy. Here are some highlights:

1. Made honors for my College softball Team :)
2. Got straight A's in college.
3. Started my first real job. Then got a full-time on as my 2nd
4. Made some awesome friends, went to some awesome parties and had made some memories I wish I could remember.
5. Discovered new things about me such as; I enjoy scriptwriting instead of writing stories. I enjoy Disney Channel STILL.
6. Paramore's new album released; Harry Potter and Transformers sequels were released.
7. I got to spend a lot more time with my family in Albuquerque, which was awesome.
8. I had a great last few months of 2009...

What I am looking forward to in 2010.
1. All my new movie sequels, and new movies to come out. Along with all the new music that is going to be released.
2. My spring softball season!
3.I will graduate with an associates.
4. I will sign to play at another college, and I am exciting to open that chapter of my life :)
5. My show 'Chuck' will premiere with its season 3 in January!!!!
6. It will be the first summer I won't play ANY summer ball, at all. It will be a nice change.
7. I will have another birthday...DUH lol
8. My aunt will have another baby :)!!!!
9. I will most likely see Paramore in concert again, and many other concerts as well.

--2010 is so uncertain, and I love it. I have no idea, other than school and softball, what I am going to do with my life... The uncertainty keeps me motivated to make new memories, meet new people and grasp the unknown. I look forward to things I have NO idea life is going to throw my way. All I know is that I am going to do good, so I have no negative Karma... Yes, I believe in karma. I am not going to make any New Years resolutions, because honestly who actually sticks to them... There is no point in me setting myself up for failure, so I will not make one. I am just going to live my life the way I want, and I will do what makes me happy :) (this equals good Karma, I hope:) )

Have a safe and blessed New Years. May your year of 2010 be a one of beautiful surprises and the upmost happiness :)

-KBM

29 December 2009

'Charah' pre-season 3 Theory...

Chuck, my all time favorite show premiers here soon, January 10th at 8pm to be exact. I have been having a great time theorizing with my friend Rich, to pass the time away. We mainly discuss our crazy hold Charah has over us. It's one of our favorite aspect of the show, and we talk about it all the time... So over time I have came up with this theory about Sarah's view on the Chuck/Sarah relationship...though probably, this will all be proven wrong. Ha, but it is always fun to theorize :)


Sarah loves Chuck, we all know this...but she has always, since the season 1, put her job and her country in front of her feelings...But the first few episodes of the season 2, she let her feelings slip... and Chuck broke her heart by saying that they will never be together. So Sarah put on her wall again...and it wasn't let down until Colonel. She sat back and let Chuck get with Jill and it broke her heart to do so… She had a thing for Cole, but never acted on it because she cared too much about Chuck...So by the end of the season she comes to the decision to throw away her career for Chuck, then he downloads 2.0, but yet she still asks him to go away with her in the season 3 premiere. They do...but we don't know what happens, or why their trip ends and she comes back...but "something traumatic" has happened. My bet is that Sarah is the one that ends it with Chuck to protect him, this new intersect has all these new powers and she has no idea how its going to affect Chuck. So she is scared that them together would be hazardous to the new intersect. So she lies and blames it on that they cant be together, blah blah blah, like she has in the past 2 seasons. She does it to protect him. Hence why in the sides it says that they see each other for the first time and they "passionately kiss". She loves Chuck. She has no choice but to break his heart. So Chuck believes Sarah, now he’s depressed and what not, they end the fake relationship too. Morgan comes back to heal Chuck... Then they realize that the new intersect needs Sarah to function. As they slowly progress to start learning about this interest, the more Sarah is comfortable with it. In the meantime, they have love interests thrown into the mix but somehow they stay in love. Even if they try being just friends, they wont be able to hide their true feelings. In the end, no matter what happens, its going to be a slow and painful process...


I may be a crazy Charah shipper, but I went from head over heels, to being a cautious shipper. So now I know all the things I do, I will be prepared for the all the hard times, but I am still going to be waiting for the big payoff, like the one in versus the Colonel :)

-KBM

Bad day

I am currently at the dentist office getting cavaties filled. Idk how it's possible that I have four cavaties when I brush my teeth 2-3 times a day AND I dot eat candy, or drink much pop! Ugh here I am getting all of these cavaties filled, going through all of this pain because I take greatxare of my teeth. Before you ask, yes I do floss...blah. I hate this. I have been dreading this moment for 2 weeks :( wish me luck y'all

- Katy B Med

Location:SE 29th St,Topeka,United States

28 December 2009

iPhone

I love the iPhone! It has everything you will ever need :) like Twitter or my blog :) awesome. Let the non stop twittering and blogging begin!


- Katy B Med

If It Means Alot To You

There is a new song that I have fallen in love with...it's called:

"If it Means Alot to You" by A Day To Remember
Here are some lyrics
--"Hey Darling, I hope your good tonight And I know you don't feel right when I'm leaving. Yeah, I want it but no, I don't need it. Tell me something sweet to get me by..."
--"If you can wait til I get home, then I swear I can make this last"

The song starts off acoustic, but at the very end of the song it picks up and does a full out ending. Its freaking sweet and I LOVE THIS SONG.

It's also a duet with Sierra Kusterback from VersaEmerge.
Go and listen :)

Wow!

Sorry,


It's been awhile. Since December 6th!
Been a lot going on and I forgot to keep posting.
So here are a few more posts ;)

06 December 2009

December 5th

December 5th, a day that for a long I will never forget.

Last year in 2008, I lost a friends named Alex Bergan. She was one year older than me and we had played volleyball together for about 4 years. The last time I had saw her was about a year before in 2007 and we slowly lost contact.
I always saw her on FB and always thought I should say hi, and ask her how she was doing. But I never did...
Then I get a phone call telling me that she had died.
She died getting an appendectomy (her appendix removed), her blood clotted and the clot went to her heart. She died on December 5th.
I was in Arkansas at college when she passed, and when her funeral was held. So, I obviously I didn't get to go to her funeral. I still haven't been to her grave to pay my respects. I feel too ashamed to do so...
So December will not be a good for a long time....
RIP Alex Marie Bergan
I remember your crazy personality and the funny jokes we would make on the court. And how could I forget our crazy dancing?? I am sorry we lost contact. I love you girl. RIP.

30 November 2009

Here it is...

Sorry, Haven't posted in awhile. A lot has been going on...

For one it was Thanksgiving and I didn't really have time to post with being around the family and sorts of things. I missed my family, and I didn't really realize how much I did until I saw them. My little brother is getting so big! He is seriously almost as tall as me, and he is so mature! Goodness I can't believe how old he is getting. It makes me feel like an old ass.
I saw four new movies over these past weeks
1. New Moon
2. G.I. Joe: Rise of Cobra
3. The Ugly Truth
4. Sunshine Cleaning
I was not really of fan of New Moon, I am not a hard core 'twi-hard' or anything. I only enjoyed a shirtless Taylor Lautner.
I really enjoyed G.I. Joe though...Channing Tatum is oh so delicious lol.
The Ugly Truth was funny. Prolly wont watch it again tho. When I look at Gerad Butler it makes me think of 300, and he was so fine in that movie.
I love love love Sunshine Cleaning. Emily Blunt is fantastic in that movie, and so is Amy Adams and Alan Arkin is always amazing! The movie was funny and the acting was good on all the three main leads...and that little boy was so cute!! Go check out this movie, I loved it.
After these movies, my life got a little sad. My uncle, whom I used to know well, passed away last night. We were closer when I was little, but as I grew older I rarely saw him. He was my grandpa's brother and I wish I could be home for my grandpa, but I can't because I am here in Texas at college...
So Rest In Peace my Uncle. I am sorry we didn't know each other better Jerry Chaffee. Rest in peace, and I am happy that you are not in pain any longer.
There it is, how my past few days have went...

19 November 2009

CHUCK!!!

SO I AM SERIOUSLY SO EXCITED TO REPORT THAT MY FAVORITE TV SHOW CHUCK IS RETURNING IN JANUARY!

There are going to be 2 new episodes on January 10th and then one new one on January 11th...returning to its normal at on mondays!
OMG OMG OMG OMG I AM SO STOKED!! It looks so good....soooo sooo soo good!!
Chuck Me Mondays gets a new start!!!

13 November 2009

What Sword?

So I have NO CLUE how I have NEVER heard this quote before....but this is officially my next tattoo...because I live by this quote


"The pen is mightier than the sword"

What the eff...I think I did hear this once, but I obviously did not pay attention...


I Just needed you to lift me UP!

So, I discovered some new music!!


They're called... GO RADIO!!
They are so amazing.
I love another band called Mayday Parade, and specifically their first album titled "A Lesson In Romantics" if you haven't heard it, check it...its SO good.
Well I guess the guy in Mayday that wrote that album, the lyrics and piano parts got absolutely NO credit for his work on the album, so he left Mayday and created his own band and its GO RADIO!!
I listened to Maydays new album and it sucked...it really did. It def. does not compare to their first album, and you can tell that he left the band and they suffer without him.
GO RADIO is a million times better than Mayday currently is...

So check em out!

08 November 2009

F*ck Awareness

So, I am fully aware that there is a lot of Breast Cancer Awareness things going on. You go to a store and you see the pink ribbon on everything... This saddens me.


I get the feelings that companies now use Breast Cancer awareness as a way to sell products. Which is total BULLSHIT.

I read on the internet that one woman with breast cancer has created a shirt says "Fuck Awareness, Find A Cure". Now this shirt, I want! She is totally right, why have awareness, when we need a cure. Awareness will only make people realize there is a problem, how do we get someone to do something about it? That is the question at hand...

So, FUCK AWARENESS AND FIND A CURE!

An Education For You....

Ao Falar Non, Escribir Fala Mais Alto


This means "When Speaking Fails, Writing Speaks Louder" in Galacian

I want to get this tattooed around my wrist... To me, writing is how I speak, and say what needs to be said

Awesome.

Not a Sunday Funday

Have not posted in awhile...so here it is.


I have had a lot of things going on...fall ball is over with. We finished up playing University of Texas Longhorns...that was a shit show, but we are a JuCo and they're one of the best teams in the Big 12 conference, so they should of kicked our ass. Anyways...

I have been writing a lot lately, and I have some new ideas and I am stoked to keep writing about them. There is one that I am particularly stoked about, but I can not divulge the information on it...I am at the first stage of writing it and I don't want to jinx it!

Our coach is doing room checks now, and so we can't really go out anymore...blah! I guess it will show our dedication to the team, or something like that.

This all I have to say for now...more later

--KM

27 October 2009

Matt Bomer

Just found out that the sexiest man alive MATT BOMER is gay. IM SO DAMN DEPRESSED.

Sad sad day...He is still seksi

One Tree Hill

Sooo I LOVE ONE TREE HILL...

it was super depressing yesterday, but it was soo good. I cried and cried...but oh so good.
CANT WAIT TIL NEXT WEEK!! HOPE CLAY AND QUINN GET TOGETHER...

24 October 2009

This Inconvenience.

So I am sick again...and my family is pretty much disappointed in me because I didn't play today...
The truth, and the honest truth is that I was afraid to be out on the field and make a mistake because I was not 100 percent today...I was terrified that I would mess up and not be able to perform to my top abilities for my team and not being able to perform for them is not okay. So I sat out, and it killed me, every single second of that game.
I feel that if I can't give my team everything I have then I have no business on that field...what so ever...
But if you look at my families perspective, then you would know that there is always something wrong...if I am not sick, then im hurt somehow...they think that I don't know that. TRUST ME I KNOW!
They tell me that I am going to start dealing with the pain...well heres what I have to say; What do you think I do? I only complain about it until it gets so bad that I cant even play, but until then, I deal with it.
They don't see it...
Yea there is always something wrong, this I know. But damn, I know everything that comes along with being sick or injured...I know that it doesn't look good for other coaches to see me sit out...
I can write what I want on here because I know they wont see it...and I know that this is the most pointless way to get things out, but its better than keeping it bottled in.
This is my outlet and I am their inconvenience... well my problems are MY INCONVENIENCE

21 October 2009

ugh

im sick again...blah blah blah....
I hate this bull

16 October 2009

Update

I haven't really had time to do an update...so here it is.

Played four games of softball this week, i'm currently sickly and watching usa.

Matt Bomer is so seksi...its ridiculous. I def tuning into White Collar.
I am falling for Psych, funny show. Saw the girl from She's All That...hehehe
Did I mention that Monk is my new favorite crime fighter??
NCIS is better than CSI, regardless of what everyone else says...even though Horatio is a stud.

This is the only positive outcome of being sick...endless tv shows.
Cheers to you cold, you've got me discovering new obsessions :)

11 October 2009

Sleep.

Here's my new theory. Since I cant sleep when I'm actually tired, what if I tried to sleep when I'm totally wired??? Here is to test day number 1...

hmm. I seriously doubt this will work considering I have INSOMNIA...

I cheers to you God, I love it when you throw me curve balls.

07 October 2009

I Love College

No, I will not be quoting Asher Roth.

College to me is my way of finally growing up and turning into someone that my family can be proud of. I hope to mature into a woman who will be successful on my own, and never have to worry about money...

I can hope and I will dream. And I will make them come true :)

-KatyGirl...

04 October 2009

This time...

Why?
People say that things happen for a reason, but you never know the reason why it happened. Though I still believe that everything does happen for a reason, I want to know why. I need to know these answers.
Why do we HAVE to have heartbreak? Can't we just be happy all the time?
When it comes to loving someone, why does it have to be so damn complicated?
When it comes to trusting someone...why is it I can't. I can never seen to find that part deep in my soul that will let me trust anyone. But as I grow older, I become less bitter and therefore trust comes easier.
But why?

29 September 2009

BRAND NEW EYES!!!!

ITS FINALLY HERE
PARAMORE - BRAND NEW EYES
seriously, thier best album yet. I cant believe that i like it better than All We Know Is Falling....thier first album. wow.
Listen to these songs specifically
The Only Exception
All I Wanted
Brick By Boring Brick
they are the best...All I Wanted has insane vocals
damn. check it now!

28 September 2009

The Only Expection

When i was younger
I saw my daddy cry and cursed at the wind he broke his own heart and I watched as he tried to reassemble it
and my momma swore that she would never let herself forget and that was the day I promised
I'd never sing of love if it does not exist..
But darlin, You are the only exception.
Maybe i know, somewhere deep in my soul that love never lasts and we've got to find other ways to make it alone or keep a straight face and i've always lived like this keeping a comfortable, distance and up until now I had sworn to myself that I'm content with loneliness because none of it was ever worth the risk, but I've got a tight grip on reality but I can't let go of what's in front of me here I know your leaving in the morning, when you wake up leave me with some kind of proof it's not a dream and I'm on my way to believing. Oh, And Im on my way to believing.

----Paramore - "The Only Exception"

23 September 2009

Excessive Idea Logging

Here are some more of my current projects;

(Only describing them in a few words)
1. The Power of a 5 minds
2. Collision of Their Past
3. The Power of Jealousy
4. Blind Love

....I have got quiet the load....

I don't plan on stopping any time soon :)
I LOVE EVERY SECOND OF IT.

I either continue a story, depending on my mood and the day. Or, If something new sparks up, I start a outline.
I have started writing scripts for stories 1-3 and outlined the fourth one. :)
I'm hoping someday, you all can love them just as much as I do!!
Sincerely,
KatyBMed

I have been thinking...

I have this problem, that I like to call "excessive idea logging". which means, that I constantly of thinking of a new story to write, a new story to share.

My newest one...
To describe it in a few words would be;
Blind Love
So sweet and sappy, so universal.

Writing is who I am.
I love my problem. If I have to live with it for the rest of my life, I will live a happy life. No one can take my mind away from me :)

Friends.

Pet Peeve.

~ When a friend of yours finds a boyfriend and all of the sudden, that is all that matters~

I am totally not against a friend finding a boyfriend, that is totally rad, but when that person finds him and then all of the sudden nothing else matter...seems a little excessive. Hmm. I find it interesting.

Maybe it's because I have commitment issues, but I don't understand it. I have been left behind enough, that it really doesn't phase me anymore.

I love blogging, none of my friends read this...because they don't care to blog so I can get away with this...maybe.

Here we go again.

MUSIC!!!

I HEARD PARAMORES NEW ALBUM TODAY!!

I. LOVE.
BRAND NEW EYES.
seriously everyone needs to check it at
paramore.net >>> their official website. its amazing
lyrically sound and not pop rock at all. reminds me of their first album.

check it right now!

21 September 2009

ONE MORE WEEK

ONE WEEK FROM TODAY PARAMORE'S NEW ALBUM COMES OUT!!

"BRAND NEW EYES"!!! WHOSE STOKED??? MEEEE!

18 September 2009

Softball

First games this weekend, I am totally stoked. Let's hope I do well...I am anxious to see how we look this year. yaaa buddy!!

15 September 2009

It's a story

I wrote this precis thing for a class, well when I got it back my teacher said that I wrote it wrong, because it was like a story.

What is wrong with writing a story?? Nothing...if you ask me
Every moment, every breathe....is a story.
There is NOT ONE moment in your life that is not worth telling.
So, I wanted to write everything I read in that chapter...as a story.
I write.
I love to write.
Stories are all I have.
How dare she insult my work because I wanted to write it as a story.
Maybe it was not apart of the assignment, but it required us to put it in our own words...so I did and it happened to be a story.
Long live the glory of story telling!

Hmm....Inspiration!

One look, he was sold

One taste, he was lost

One touch, he was made

One look was all it took

One taste was all that was needed

One touch had closed the deal…

One look started it all.

One taste made him weak

One touch, his heart skipped…

It all started with her beauty

And his heart would never need

To look, taste, or touch ever again.

I usually don't write poetry/lyrics anymore....but I felt inspired. Its called "One".

Enjoy :)

12 September 2009

Music.

Playlist for today

Mayday Parade
Demi Lovato
Paramore
Cute Is What We Aim For
Cartel
The Cab
Chevelle
this playlist could really go on forever...

08 September 2009

This Ordinary Day

This ordinary day, is like any other day...usual, typical, and mapped out.

Tomorrow I will wake up at 5:35 am, go to weights. Then come back to my dorm and go back to bed. Wake up at 8:45 am and go to Government class. Return to my dorm, and yet again sleep. Go to lunch around noon then go to the training room at 2:30 then go to practice. After practice I will go to dinner and then go to study hall til' nine.
I am not too sure I like this planned out deal...I like the unknown part of my day. The curve ball you don't see coming.
But here we go again.

First Blog Ever

This is my first blog entry ever, not too sure what I need to say here...