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I love writing, and writing is what I do best. Everyone has their own inspiration and a way to deal with emotion, and my outlet is writing and music. Music is my calm, my happiness, my sadness and my life. I love music, I listen to it all day everyday. I have been writing since I learned how to make sense of all the things going on in my mind. My writing is how I get everything I feel out in the open. When I create a character I feel like I put myself in their shoes, like I vicariously live through them... I wouldn't have it any other way because to me it makes them seem more relatable. Without my writing and music, I would be a lost soul... It is who I am. My name is also Katy Brooks, though it is not my real name, it who I will be known as from here on out.

24 February 2010

A sample!

Here is a sample of my writing. I wrote this paper for my scriptwriting class. The purpose of it was to describe what were were hearing, smelling, and feeling. I wrote about what I heard when I was walking back to my dorm for class.


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The Ambience of Personal Silence

You never know what you’re going to experience when you decide to stop hearing, and decide to start listening. Things seem clearer and life seemed meaningful. With every breath I took and every step I made new sounds were heard; it would appear that things were making since. When I took an oath of a silence for thirty minutes, I heard sounds I had never listened to before. This was a unique silence that was all mine. I started outside…

Through the sound of tires crashing through deep puddles it reminded me that the rain has not only effected my own willing footsteps, but every other moving object on campus. I hear laughing in the distance as it slowly creeps closer, and their eager footsteps have a telling pace. People pass with quiet conversation, a slight detection of nervousness in their voices. Homework, they say, is their main concern.

Walking inside to save myself from the extreme humidity, the air conditioner kicks on as if it read my mind. Friendly people say hello while those who keep to themselves walk by without a sigh, or a simple nod. Once I am alone, I only hear the sound of my Nikes dragging along on the tile, I then realize how annoying it sounds when I walk. Nearing my exit, I am startled by the clanking of the mechanical closet that seems as if it is working overtime to keep people like me happy and cool.

Outside again, the effects of rain strike again and a large, rusted gutter is gushing water with out anticipation. The humidity is causing me to break a small sweat, I feel as if I am in Kansas again, there is no place like home. Walking through the gravel I hear small rocks being crunched while larger rocks are being kicked forward with every stride. One bird chirps, as other birds chime in, in unison as if they were seemingly crying for the same thing.

While basking in the ambience of these birds chirping a loud muffler disturbs me, and the car quickly pulling out while the muffler rumbles, I am not impressed. As one car leaves, it sounds as if twenty more pull in. I inch closer to my dorm as more familiar voices can be heard, and familiar faces can be seen. Laughter, and loud voices remind me that I am close to happiness, and my personal silence is almost over.

I get to the stairs and there is a sound of footsteps eagerly going down the steps, as I move to the side to let them pass. I turn the corner, I am on my floor and I hear my friends greeting me as if I had been gone for longer than a few hours. I get propositioned to go to lunch, and I do not decline. My silence is over, and all of these new sounds I have heard, but I know I won’t listen like I just had a few moments before. The ambience of my personal silence is something I won't forget for awhile.

Explanation...

I feel maybe I should explain a big topic:


My name...

My real name is not Katy Brooks and I have it this way for a couple reasons...
1. My step-dad, who has done more for me than I could ever imagine, his last name is Brooks. He is my dad. He has done so much for me for the 11 years he has been apart of my life that the only way I can think of repaying him is giving his name the credit for any of my work that gets published.
2. My real dad/my real last name will always be my permanent last name... I will never change it on my birth certificate... So my last name will ALWAYS be that.
3. I don't want internet people to know my real information or who I am in real life. So Katy Brooks is who most people on here will know me as, and if any of my writing work gets published it will be Katy Brooks.

I don't want this to cause a problem with my family, whose last name is my real last name. I did this for my step dad, to give him credit for raising me and doing all the things he has done, and will do for me. I do it because I love him and no matter what happens to either of my dads, I will always have 2.

I love my real dad, and I will always. This is not a way to get back at him or any bull shit like that. It is a decision I made awhile back when I decided that I was going to become a writer...

This is the only way I know I can tell my step dad that I appreciate him more than he will ever know. :)

- KBM

Twitter Movement!

Hey y'all! If you are on twitter help us all out!


Go here to check out the Facebook page to help get Chuck's leading lady and the biggest badass on TV: Yvonne Strahovski on Ellen!!

http://www.facebook.com/group.php?v=wall&ref=mf&gid=281897237648

Hashtag your twitter posts with: #YvonneOnEllen!! DO IT!

-KBM

Not too sure...

I have been so busy this past week or so!! Some big things have happened and GREAT things happened and some are still unknown.


One of the bigger things that happened is that I got to see my family this past weekend. They drove down here from Kansas to watch me play and go to my visit with me at Eastern New Mexico. I was so excited to see them that I cried, y'all I NEVER cry when I see them!! It was really emotional. My mom says and I quote "Why are you crying, you don't even like me!" I love her! My brother looked at me like I was an idiot... he loves me. LOL. Anyways, they watched me play and of course I played like total CRAP! Like I have not played that awful in a LONG time... boy was it bad. Anyways, they kept their cool and it turned out to be a great weekend I had with them, and it felt nice to get some quality time with my mom, brother, and grandma.

After my tournament I went to Portales, New Mexico (as I mention in the previous post) I went on a visit there for softball next year.... Well I committed and I sign in April! Exciting!

When I was there for my visit I met the Film professor and we had a nice chat and I emailed her a short example of one of my scripts, so now I am patiently/nervously waiting for her to email me back and tell me what she thinks... I am running out of fingernails to nibble on!! I am so nervous...

I have never had any formal teaching/classes on screenwriting, I have just read and listened to podcasts for the basic information on how to write one correctly. Thank God for Final Draft because that also saved my life! Anyways, I can't wait for her notes and help on it so I can become a better writer. OH I held me first REAL life script last week. It's a script that is currently in pre-production at Clint Eastwood's film company in LA and the movie is about the life of Pinky Wilson. I can't tell you anything about it but it was AWESOME! I was reading the script and I got some much from it!

Anyways, that is all I have right now about me. I have another post about some other things I learned this week. I will save that for another day!

Stay blessed and remember the life you have, you should not take for granted :D

- KBM

22 February 2010

BIG NEWS!!!

So today I committed to play softball at Eastern New Mexico University!!


I am so stoked, I loved the campus and best of all they have the major I want!
-- I talked to some professors and they made me so ecstatic to go to class!

Can it be my junior year yet!?!?!?

- KBM

PS I will do a big update and some more posts soon, I have been lacking!

15 February 2010

ohhh sigh.

This weekend was so freaking pointless!!


My college team drove 11 hours to the southeast corner of Texas this weekend to go play 4 games since our original tournament got cancelled due to snow. We ended up being about 20 minutes from the Louisiana border and it was Marti Gras central down there and that was TIGHT! Too bad we couldn't celebrate...

So we drove down Friday and were scheduled to play Saturday and Sunday... Well Saturday morning rolls around and it is 1) freezing outside and 2) just got done raining. So we got to the field, which happened to be the SHITTIEST field I have EVER played on, did our warm up job and stretching and then our coach says to get back on the bus there is no way we are playing today. The reason being - the field was so AWFUL that when he stepped on the field he sunk. Someone was going to get hurt and he wasn't having it.

To end my story we traveled 11 hours to sit in a hotel room... We didn't even end up playing on Sunday. Sigh...

Though there was one good note about this trip. We all went as a team, all 20 girls our girl assistant coach to go see Dear John. It was a sight to see because during the sad parts, or really kind of the whole movie 18 of us were crying including our coach. At one point most of us were actually sobbing! Great movie, y'all should go see it!

Chat later.

-KBM

10 February 2010

Chuck Fandom

There is no feeling worst than the one that you have when you have been made into freaking joke!


Yesterday the Chuck fandom went a little crazy because we were upset with how an episode went. Most of us just discussed it on twitter. Some of us stayed off the forums and the boards because quite frankly who wants see what is being said there after how the episode went down... Later on in the day Josh Schwartz, Chris Fedak, and Ali Adler all start posting articles to tell us fans to calm down that everything is going to be okay. Schwartz and Fedak even did a follow up interview to reassure that everything will be explained in the coming up episodes. The fandom subsided soon after.

Except for one or two fans who decided that they were going to quit the show. They posted some things for the public to see and now everyone is seeing this fandom as a total joke. The 'anonymous' posters said we should take control and make a statement for the writers to know we were disappointed. No, we will NOT DO THAT!

We are are passionate fans, and 98% of us are not crazy. We were disappointed in the last 10 minutes of the show. The fans that are sane are still going to fight for this show just as hard as we did last year if not harder.

So there is no need to worry Josh, Chris, and Ali because we have your back. Just because we were disappointed with one episode does not mean that we are going to "revolt" and not come back and watch the rest. This has made the fandom even stronger and we plan to fight out the negative press and get rid of these crazies who think we should make a statement! The only statement we will be making is that Chuck needs to get renewed for a fourth season!

Chuck fans unite in order to save the show we love the most!

For those "anonymous" posters, how about you grow a pair and post your name next time? Or you could show you are not a complete coward and come out and say it was you. :)

-KBM

06 February 2010

Trust

At some point in life you will experience what it feels to be betrayed.


Well that recently has happened to me.... Not in the way you think. I wasn't betrayed horribly, but it was subtle enough to make an impact.

I learned who you can truly trust and whom it might be can surprise you.

I found out that I can't trust two of the closest people I am to here at college. I actually learned that it would be one of the last people I would trust here would be the one I could count on the most. I learned who my true friends are and to be honest I am not upset at all! I am happy to know that the last person on this campus would turn out to be the one person I could trust the most.

I made two good friends today and I also lost faith in two others. Today was surprisingly a good day :)

Just remember to always be cautious. I will be now, but I do not regret having to learn this lesson... I am excited for my newly found bonds with the out of the blue connection.

-KBM

05 February 2010

Life.

Life and Regret.


When I look around I see all of these people doing different things with their lives, maybe that being a dead end job, or a job they enjoy. I look at all of these people and I feel as if it is so unfulfilling and it makes me sad. But what do I know? Maybe these people actually enjoy their job and it is everything they want in life...

To me, I want more... So much more. I don't want fame or money. I want to do something with my life that when I wake up in the morning I will look forward to doing. I don't want to spend the rest of my life wishing I had done more, or had something different. I want so much in life and when I see everyone else coasting or doing something unfulfilling it gets to me...

I wont spend my days regretting the things I never did. There is so much to have in the world and I want everything I can get my hands on. I want people to know my writing, to know my name as the girl who never gave up on the things she wanted the most.

I want to be able to look at myself in the mirror and not feel ashamed. I want to look in the mirror and be happy with myself, with my body.

The only way I can achieve any of this is doing it on my own. I don't sit back and feel sorry for myself, only I can make myself who I am. Everything I hate about myself is my doing, and all I want to do is have my own life that is my choice. No matter what life I chose for myself, it is what I chose because I love it.

When that day comes and that realization hits me, it will be one of the happiest days of my life. I can't wait until then.

But, for now... I will enjoy the life and things that I have with a big smile on my face. I just can't wait until I have the life that I choose for myself. I don't want it to seem that I am complaining about my life, because I am not. I am simply saying that in the future I want to have a happy life and never hate one day of it.

I want a life full of fulfillment and joy. Not regret and anger.

-KBM

04 February 2010

Lately...

So Lately not much has been going on in my life... Except the usual. Watch a little TV, reading, homework, softball... the usual.


I figured out that online Meteorology is the hardest class I have ever taken...
My show Chuck keeps getting better. I have also picked up on a few new shows like Burn Notice and Vampire Diaries. I really enjoy these shows!
Oh! I did a podcast too, I have never been a fan of them. But I participated in one and I was pretty stoked about it!
We had our first softball game this week, and we won both! We were suppose to leave tomorrow for a tournament tomorrow in Galveston... but I just found out it is cancelled. So now I am a little bummed... :/
There is a big disappointment when you are all packed and ready to go and have everything in order then you find out you are not going anywhere. Its a total bum factor...
I thought maybe I would try to go to New Mexico to see my 2 year old niece and my aunt and uncle. I miss them. They are my second family. My aunt called me to tell me this story about how Gabriela left her water in the guest room (which is where I stay) and my aunt and uncle asked "Gabs where did you put your water" and she replied with "In Katy's room"! That made me smile. I miss her!! But that won't happen, cause my coach just shot that down... sigh...

I guess it is back to my not so eventful life :) <- something I am content with...

-KBM